Darkness Takes Shape - Part Two

Posted on Wed Mar 18th, 2020 @ 4:20am by Lieutenant Commander Elizabeth Yamaguchi-Solusar & Commodore Siaxx "Bluemoon" Dvald-Vaxx MD

Mission: Mission 98: Building Our New Home
Location: Various Locations - Starbase Vanguard / USS Dreamcrusher
Timeline: 0915Hrs - June 20th, 2393

"I want you to restore his ability to foster children," Dvald-Vaxx answered unexpectedly.

"Oh...Okay," Yamaguchi-Solusar responded before the larger female suddenly figured it all out. "Because Commodore Tane is not here to enforce her threat." Yamaguchi-Solusar inquired but as soon as she said it, she quickly realized that it was the worst thing she could have ever said as she saw Dvald-Vaxx's eyes change color from their usual dark color to a molten orange, or so it seemed from the massive woman's perspective, the sudden change filled Yamaguchi-Solusar with fear and dread.

Dvald-Vaxx's temper fused white-hot as she gave the larger woman a dark glare. "If I ever.." Dvald-Vaxx started angrily. "Get my hands on her.. I'll rip out her fucking intestines and wear them like a fucking necklace." she snarled before she let out a loud snarl, the cat watched Dvald-Vaxx carefully as if judging her mood. "Before I rend her limb from limb!." the small Bolian screeched angrily.

Yamaguchi-Solusar regarded Dvald-Vaxx in silence as she knew why the small Bolian had just lost her temper just now, as she was very intimately aware of the long history between Siaxx Dvald-Vaxx and Zara Tane. "Siaxx, look at me. You are scaring the cat."

Dvald-Vaxx shifted her attention as requested to the larger female in the room. "I know why you lost your temper just now... Do you know the difference between anger and rage?" Yamaguchi-Solusar inquired, a gentle smile on her face.

Dvald-Vaxx breathed out and in quickly as she tried to control her breathing. "No... Not anymore." Dvald-Vaxx admitted softly.

The fact that the smaller female could admit it so easily, gave Yamaguchi-Solusar hope. What are the differences Siaxx?." Yamaguchi-Solusar inquired, not in an ungentle tone of voice, Yamaguchi-Solusar raised an eyebrow as her body language insisted on an answer, she worked on Shonax as she gave him a light sedative before she went to work. The cat more or less proceeded to lie down as if feeling really sleepy, he yawned once and then fell asleep.

"Anger is a reaction to someone pissing me off," Dvald-Vaxx responded quietly. "Shame is a reaction to something I did which I'm ignoring."
she paused. "Zara shamed me in front of her ragtag band of misfits."

"Yeah. There's an old Earth author who once said and I quote. "Guilt says I've done something wrong; shame says there is something wrong with me. Guilt says I've made a mistake; shame says I am a mistake. Guilt says what I did was not good; shame says I am no good." Yamaguchi-Solusar regarded Dvald-Vaxx. "You did nothing wrong. Zara was the one who did a lot of nasty crap. She made my mother, my sister, and my niece, dance through her hoops, she nearly ruined my parent's marriage, she put mom through all that stress while mom was carrying the twins and then there was her drama with Phoenix."

Dvald-Vaxx sighed softly. "I was there, she dragged us out of bed one night and had Phoenix arrested without proof. That's why I went for her the way I did." the small Bolian sighed. "I wish I'd finished what I had started.."

"I remember," Yamaguchi-Solusar responded quietly. "I was there for that too." Yamaguchi-Solusar then sighed softly. "I'm going to book you in for some counseling Siaxx. I think that since the cause of your troubles has gone. I can help you heal and overcome these problems, that is... If you wish it." Yamaguchi-Solusar regarded the small female before her. "If not then... Okay."

"I do!," Dvald-Vaxx answered quietly. "I do wish it."

"Good. The first step is always the hardest and the other steps. I will be there every step of the way." Yamaguchi-Solusar smiled. "I'll babysit for you for the next couple of days, so feel free to drop your sons off so you can have time to yourself. I've babysat for you before so leave your small army of kids with me and Kam, we'll have an outing planned or something to keep their minds off of you." the large female explained. "I'll get them off to school in the morning so you can get at least get some sleep," Yamaguchi-Solusar explained herself. "Or you can bed your husband in peace."

"You are too kind." Dvald-Vaxx paused as she looked down, averting her eyes so Yamaguchi-Solusar wouldn't see the tears forming.

"I am who I am and nobody will change that." as Yamaguchi-Solusar gently placed her hand on the other woman's shoulder. "I refuse to break or bend for anyone." Yamaguchi-Solusar smiled as she finished. "There we go, now Studley here will go forth and create his little cat colony but you did not hear me say that, okay?" as Yamaguchi-Solusar winked before she gently woke Shonax. "Hey little guy," she said to the cat as she gently woke him.

The cat blinked open his large eyes as he regarded Yamaguchi-Solusar, he yawned loudly as he stretched all of his paws and claws. "Well he should have his issues sorted out and you can take him home.. Or you can drop him off with me too and he can hang out with Comet and Avalanche." she paused. "It'll do him good to meet other cats."

"You want kittens or something?" Dvald-Vaxx inquired.

"Why not?" Yamaguchi-Solusar answered, a gentle smile playing at her lips. "I mean looking after cats is not hard, just gotta take into account various issues and the like. Besides, it'll be fine, he gets to make my girls happy and I get to have more cats. Robert will grow up with cats and I doubt he'll mind much." as she rose to her feet before she gently helped Shonax into his cat carrier, he didn't like it and he said as much too. "I don't mind extra cats." she paused. "Nothing overly strenuous for the next week or so, I'll update his records so the Starbase vet knows what to look for. Tell your children to be very gentle with him. Okay?"

Dvald-Vaxx regarded kitty in his career. "Okay," she said to the large female. "Let's get you home." she turned to Yamaguchi-Solusar. "Thank you, Elizabeth."

"Your welcome Siaxx. Besides I personally, think its high time you got the help you needed." Yamaguchi-Solusar answered as she walked beside Dvald-Vaxx back towards the front. "I'll get you booked in and I'll let you know when k?" she responded. "Since the primary irritant is gone, we can clean up her mess."

"I know Elizabeth. Tane was fucking good at creating messes, she was not so good at cleaning them up." Dvald-Vaxx answered softly. "I... I need a drink." Siaxx added a moment later.

"Well don't worry about your kids tonight from the Starbase school. I'll also pick up Heraxx tonight, from daycare, just make sure you add me to the list of people who can interact with them otherwise it'll go badly k?" Yamaguchi-Solusar smiled. "Dreamcrusher is in for a few days and Kam and I had nothing planned, he was asking about you."

"Give Kam my regards." Dvald-Vaxx paused. "If and when I get my own command. I want you as my Chief Medical Officer and Kam for Chief of science."

Yamaguchi-Solusar smiled. "I'll pass that along to Kam but I think we'll both say yes."

"Alright. Thank you, Elizabeth." Dvald-Vaxx answered in a quiet tone of voice.

"No worries Siaxx. I'll seeya later okay.?" Yamaguchi-Solusar answered with a soft grin.

"Yeah." and with that Siaxx Dvald-Vaxx departed the Dreamcrushers sickbay without another word after the two women parted company.