Shockwave

Posted on Sun Mar 1st, 2020 @ 5:46pm by Lieutenant Commander Elizabeth Yamaguchi-Solusar & Lieutenant Commander Kameron "Foehammer" Solusar-Yamaguchi

Mission: Mission 34: Between Two Fires
Location: Various Locations - USS Roanoke
Timeline: 0200Hrs - June 26th, 2391

Hoist the Colours - Pirates of the Caribbean Suite

It was late at night as Kameron Yamaguchi blinked his eyes open, he sucked in a lungfull of air as he heard a soft moan as his wife likewise woke up. "Kam?" Elizabeth asked sleepily.

"I'm alright... just... what a weird dream..."

"I heard.." Elizabeth regarded her husband as she gently moved onto her side to face him, but she rubbed her breasts up against him as he instantly smiled, the bed they shared was not a large one, it was only a double where as most prefered a king sized bed or a queen, Elizabeth didn't mind if it was a double, it only meant that she and Kameron were in physical contact for most of the night, bundled up together. "Do you wanna talk about it?" she inquired.

"Mmm..." Kameron paused before he frowned. "I actually... don't recall it now... I hate that.."

"I hear ya." Elizabeth responded with a smile. "Its got something to do with the deeper levels of sleep, some of it is called dreamless sleep for a reason, then there is REM sleep."

"Yeah, rapid eye movement.." Kam responded. "Isn't that where we dream?"

"Yeah, our brains need it to release hormones which repair the body." Elizabeth explained softly before she sat up. "You ever wonder if we made a dumb decision?"

"What, getting married or you doing something?"

"I'm wondering if I made a mistake in taking my mothers fetus.." she admitted. "I wonder if I made the wrong choice."

"Life is full of choices hon. You chose to help your mother with her medical issues rather then stand by on the sidelines and do nothing." Kameron responded. "But... Elizabeth, you need to figure out what you are doing.." he regarded his wife with an almost cold look. "You have a habit of bulldozing your way through situations without thinking it through, you caused that situation with Phoenix and the second one was with your mother, the third was with Aryssa when you got involved by following her down the hallway, rather then let mother and daughter sort it out themselves."

"Hey, I did what I-"

"Elizabeth, No... you chose to get involved and then you came to Phoenix's aid in that dispute when you should have let them both get slapped for it..." Kameron responded. "and your mother was the one who screwed up royally by allowing herself to become pregnant when she should have taken precautions on the matter."

Elizabeth paused, she knew that Kameron was right and that he didn't often give her a dressing down on any level unless she truly needed it, plus he was not yelling or getting angry at her.

"Elizabeth... You are my wife.. and I love you but you do need to change your tactics in regards to dealing with others.... you can be extremely intimidating simply because of your size and mass.... you stand more then six foot tall, most women don't get above five foot eight." Kameron explained. "You are also not light either... you mass in above normal weight because of your height.."

"Hey!. Are you calling me fat!" Now Elizabeth was starting to get angry.

"No Elizabeth. I'm not calling you fat... but like I said earlier... most don't get to your height so when you get angry... and you do, quite often may I add... you can be regarded as a truly dangerous threat, you've already proved this when you mind raped the Captain..."

Elizabeth paused. "Yeah... I never saw.."

"You still have time to change things Beth.. But you're developing a reputation for being a bulldozer in a candy store." Kameron explained. "You're making the rest of us beatsticks look bad and you're putting me personally out of a job." Kameron reached over a he touched his wife on her shoulder. "You are so determined to prove yourself that you can't see whats in front of you."

"But I'm still doing an internship two years after I graduated from the academy, most people are done in one..." she explained. "maybe I'm doing something wrong."

"You are...." Kameron was blunt and uncompromising in his response. "Your boss is a tiny woman and I'm willing to bet that you scare the living daylights out of her when you get angry, plus she knows what you're like when you are motivated.... Like it or not Beth, you have made light of the issue... you mindraped someone already and you also threaterned to do it again at your bosses wedding, you can't pull stupid shit like that and get away with it... had this been any other ship, you would have been made to pack your bags and out of starfleet you went.... and you know it..."

Elizabeth opened her mouth to say something but Kameron didn't give her the chance. "You are losing your way, wife of mine.... You could become another Admiral Nechayev or worse... and I don't need a woman like that.... I need the Elizabeth I feel for at the academy..."

"She was a weak woman.... who allowed herself to get-"

Kameron knew he had about two minutes left before she got angry. "No. Godammit woman, you didn't allow anything to happen, you came home to find that worthless sack of shit in your bed with another woman... you tried to deal with it in the regs but he followed and HE was the one who tried to rape you... you fought him off as best you could... but he simply overpowered you."

"You weren't there.."

"Yes I fucking was Elizabeth, you know I was... I tossed him through a plate glass window... I very nearly killed him because of what he did to you." Kameron breathed in deeply, partly to calm down and partly to get some air so he could finish making his point. "Elizabeth, you swore that you'd never been vulnerable ever again... and you're taking out your rage on everyone around you.... others have mentioned it, I'm the first to do something about it.."

Elizabeth sighed softly. "Its too late .... or too early for this."

"No... now is the perfect time... because everyone else who matters to you is asleep... and you need new outlets for your rage..."

"Oh?" Elizabeth responded.

"Yes... new physical activities... when was the last time you did something you enjoyed...?" Kameron regarded his wife. "Can you even remember?"

Elizabeth simply shook her head. "No...." she admitted softly.

"Well that's going to end, starting tomorrow... you work your regular hours in sickbay and stop sticking in all this overtime which is clearly getting you nowhere and you come hang out with me and other people doing leisure activities... which by the way, is not paperwork.... your job is slowly consuming you.."

"I assume you have a list of activities lined up..?" Elizabeth inquired

"Actually, Yes I do.... we're going to start with Aquatic sports.. like water polo and surfing, parasailing and a few others... because... honestly, you need to get out more... and work is the direct cause of your unvented rage that you're ignoring... Well you can't keep going like this... You can't keep fucking people around like this or being the bulldozer.... next time something happens, take five seconds and think about it... show that you are able to handle it with maturity and intelligence rather then brute force....Elizabeth, all you are is brute force, brute force, brute force, brute force, brute force, brute force..." he said the last twelve words extremely quick before he ran out of breathe. "If you don't think of yourself... think your the unborn baby, presently sleeping within you. Unless you get it together, you are going to fuck up... and that baby will pay for it.."

"Kameron-"

"I will not be a party to it Elizabeth... You know I won't... " He finally pissed her off as she growled before he snapped, he then pushed her out of the bed, she landed on her hands and feet before pushing herself to her feet as Kameron chased her out of the bed. "GET OUT!" he yelled at her, now totally enraged.

"These are my quarters..." Elizabeth responded.

"I'm too fucked up to give a shit... But you know what, where reason does not stop you, perhaps force can at least delay you." Kameron picked up her uniform and threw it at her. "Get dressed and get out... let me get some measure of rest from this fucked up night with no ending."

Elizabeth growled. "You know what.... fuck you!" she almost yelled at him.

"You are unreasonable half the time.. and you've lost your way..... Figure it out Elizabeth before you become as vile as James Slone..-" there was a loud impact as flesh struck flesh, Kameron blinked as he lifted his hand to his face, which was sure sported a rather angry looking handprint.

Elizabeth blinked. "I'..I'm... I'm sorry..." she had never raised her hand to anyone she considered family before as Kameron didn't hit her back, he looked more resigned then angry.

"Goodnight Elizabeth.." Kameron waited for her to done her pants and uniform tank top before he gently but firmly threw her out of her quarters. "I won't walk on eggshells around anyone, least of all around you... You know better..." and with that he closed the door on her face.

He gently picked his way back to the bed. "I can't believe that just happened..." he muttered aloud. "God, forgive me... I just destroyed my fucking marriage.." before he climbed back into bed. "I'll deal with this tomorrow."

Elizabeth stood outside her own quarters as she felt that the entire sequence of events was only a dream. 'Its no dream sweetheart...' replied her inner voice, one she had not heard in far too long. 'He's right, you know... and I am your conscience, we've not talked because you've been ignoring me.. stop ignoring me and listen to what I have to say.... and listen to your husband if you want to save your marriage...'

"What do I do now?" Elizabeth asked the wall, its silence was her only response as it didn't know what to say or it didn't care.

'Elizabeth, you can start by learning from your mistakes... and I mean really learning from them... otherwise everything you accomplished and did up to this point was all for nothing. So... figure it out and get up off of your ass and go somewhere productive'

"Right." Elizabeth muttered aloud as she indeed was sitting on her ass, before she hauled herself to her feet. "I need sleep first..." she turned right to go knock on her mothers door but she decided against it, instead she tapped her combadge. "Computer, Locate Flight Captain Lasky?"

"Flight Captain Lasky is in his quarters...." came the response.

"Is he awake..."

"Affirmative." was the unexpected response.

"Okay." Elizabeth carried her boots as she made her way down the hallway to her new destination.