I'm Missing Something

Posted on Sun Mar 1st, 2020 @ 4:47am by Fleet Captain Torilla Yamaguchi

Mission: Mission 33: Losing the Peace
Location: Various Locations - USS Roanoke
Timeline: 1000Hrs - June 8th, 2391

Commander Torilla Yamaguchi was home alone, well the cats were presently crowding her as she sat on the floor along them but she didn't mind, the twins were off with Phoenix and Saki was off at her mother. Rachael was in the holodeck and Elizabeth was on duty, also Jake was off back on duty heading to Watchman Station which meant that Torilla was more or less alone.

Torilla was wearing a tank top and a pair of shorts as today was a day off to herself that she sorely needed before the doorbell beeped at her.

"Its Open." as she gently set Silversides back down on the carpet before her and she rose to greet her visitor. "Zara....whats up?"

"Not much," Zara smiled brightly, for she missed her friend a lot. "I mostly just wanted to see how things were going with you."

"Come on in.." Torilla responded. "Nobody else is home, Saki is at school, probably driving her teachers insane, the twins are off with Phoenix, Elizabeth is at work and Rachael is planetside. Jake is settling into life on a Starbase.... I think he's bored out of his mind... but that's me speaking.." before Torilla went over to the replicator. "Can I get you anything?"

"Something cold to drink," Zara agreed and sat down beside of her friend.

Torilla turned her head. "One orange punch, five degrees." and with that a large glass appeared, as Torilla plucked it from the replicator.

"I knew you been busy adjusting to things so I haven't been by lately as a result," Zara spoke apologetically. "Twins already have a few mothers in their eyes so I did not want to complicate that much."

Torilla replicated the drink before she handed it off to Zara. "Well.. its not like you've not been busy yourself." she responded evenly. "The twins regard Phoenix as mom.... which in all honestly I'm alright with... its not like she spends all of her time drunk and/or stoned anymore.." the larger woman explained.

"She never got stoned... That was me," Zara ended a bit guiltily. "Seems everyone is moving forward with their lives and I'm stuck watching it all in the backseat."

Torilla regarded the smaller woman. "So... whats holding you back...?"
she inquired as she narrowed her eyes, while two of the kittens turned to face Zara.

"Fuck if I know," Zara shrugged. "COs are strongly discouraged from making a lot of friendships and relationships... And given the weirdness and shit that's happened to me since this new batch of goobers came aboard? Not really inspired."

Torilla regarded the other woman patiently. "Since when does Zara Tane care about the rules...?" she raised an eyebrow. "stop letting others dictate your life for you..."

"The smurf is actually nice to me now," Zara spoke in reference to Siaxx. "Not sure why. She used ta hate me."

"The smurf." Torilla replied in a dry tone. "Interesting words... considering she once thought of you as a dire threat to me... Same with Elizabeth... yet they both like you... Elizabeth in particular." the more massive woman shrugged before she sat down on the sofa. "Have you any ideas as to why that is..?"

"I don't know, really. I've just been myself," Zara guessed with a shrug.

"Well... you want me to share some details?" she paused as she rose to her feet. "Come on... into the bedroom.... I'm sensing you have been frustrated recently.." she looked over her shoulder. "Sex is an excellent reliever... I'll let you have your way with me.... so come on.."

"I fucked Ra'vak the other day," Zara pointed out as she began to undo her clothes. "...But yeah. I agree. I haven't have much in that department lately."

Torilla walked into the bedroom as she peeled off her tanktop and her shorts, to reveal her finely toned body. "You coming?" she then walked into the bathroom, she stepped over to the shower as she turned the water on. "You intrested?" as a smile appeared on her face. "I'm going to see to it... that you remember today..."

"You really love showers," Zara laughed as she dropped her own tank and boy briefs before she joined her friend in a well-needed embrace.

Torilla gently hugged her friend back. "Well... I do now.." she paused before she stepped into the shower,m the warm water cascading over her skin as she gently turned Zara around so the other woman was facing her. "I'm going to share with you... something.. of what real intimacy is.." before she gently forged a link with the smaller woman's mind, when that was finished she shared her memories of her time with Nalla.

"Oh fuck," Zara inhaled as the multitude of emotions hit her. Mostly of needing to mate. Thus she began to kiss Torilla and feel her up quite a lot within the shower.

Torilla smiled as she returned the smaller woman's kisses with her own as she was not going to stop or constrain the smaller woman in any way, shape or form, if anything she wanted to encourage her.

It was maybe an hour or so later in which the two were on Torilla's bed, still nude, but resting from their sore venture. It was a bittersweet moment for Zara, for she never realized how much she'd missed just hanging out with Torilla.

"You know..." Zara paused to yawn. "I want what the Nymph gave you, for myself. Problem is, most people don't want to touch me because I'm the CO."

Torilla was lying on her side as she faced Zara. "What I gave you was a mere taste of what Nalla shared with me.... it was an accident.." the larger woman explained.

"I don't see you complaining about it," Zara spoke with intrigue. "So part of you is in love her? And does she share that with you?"

"Nalla and I share a rather potent psionic connection, much like the one I have with Jake, only this one is far more potent..." she paused. "It's why I needed a week off after the Peeves incident.." she paused a second time. "I don't recommend you having any sort of intimate contact with Nalla... not because she's a bad lover... but because she is... so potent, it nearly destroyed me.."

"Still... I'm glad you found something enjoyable," Zara smiled brightly. "Sounds fun, anyway."

"You have no idea... I had to rediscover myself... all over again, who I am.... and who I was... is not who I will be." Torilla paused. "Nalla and I were interrupted." she paused. "I won't say I'm in love with her.... what I will say.... is that I understand her.... far better than most.."

"Love has a rather twisted meaning for Deltans," Zara pointed out in a way that meant she had no intention of trying to figure those people out. "I find it interesting you've gotten the nymph to embrace that side of her."

"As I said." Torilla responded. "It was an accident... I'm still teaching her how to hone and use her various abilities as well as helping her overcome her extreme shyness... I'm having results.." she explained as she gave Zara a rather sinister grin. "Don't knock it... You should try it for yourself... she'll teach you things you'll remember the rest of your life.."

"No thanks," Zara remarked dryly. "I've been numbed by her twice, and got crotch itch from it. So I'll pass."

"You just had an itch... I had crotch-burn..." Torilla explained. "Lets just say that it hurt to go to the bathroom for a few days..."

"...And I don't hear a protest in that complaint," Zara teased with an evil grin.

Torilla raised an eyebrow. "The sex was simply amazing..." she responded with a soft chuckle.

"And you hit that on rookie status," Zara stated in awe.

Yamaguchi raised an eyebrow. "It cost me enough.." she responded. "the first time did anyway... the following times weren't as bad.."

"...So she's improved?" Zara asked, even more intrigued.

"In a manner..." Torilla admitted. "She is Deltan with everything that goes with it..." a sigh escaped her lips. "She almost left me brain-damaged." the larger woman sighed. "In fact.. Because she and I blended together.... I can argue that I'm not the same person anymore.."

"So how is Jake taking this new connection you have with Nalla?" Zara asked with concern.

"Jake... surprisingly enough.. He's alright with it." Torilla explained. "He married me, not Nalla.. We have five kids together, three are adults and are in relationships, two of those have children of their own and the third... is working on it..." the larger woman regarded the Trill. "Jake is happy with the state of our marriage. What happened between Nalla and myself was an accident... but it's having effects.. People have commented that I seem to be mellowing out... but with Nalla, the opposite is true."

"She used to never come out of her lab," Zara agreed. "You got her to come out for meals, in the mess. That in itself is a huge change for the water nymph."

Torilla regarded the smaller woman with a soft smile. "I know. She spends more time outside of her lab.. She is also somewhat happier... but then I have my own demons that I deal with, same as she does... mine however are different.."

"Olmos may be very happy to see that then," Zara agreed with a relaxed sigh. "It's not easy keeping that kid out of trouble for a very overbearing helicopter mom that outranks you."

"Thats why I tend to leave her mother out of it." Torilla explained. "Nalla is a grown woman who does not need to be babysat all the time. She's been helping me with my own demons... and she's been a great help to Elizabeth too, in dealing with her situation."

"That's all well and good Tori, but..." Zara sighed and continued, "Nalla has autistic-like tendencies, according to Olmos. And she has been taken advantage of be many people because she can't read emotions well like you and me. Best you can hope for, is teaching her how to mimic normal behaviors... And Olmos charged me with making sure no one takes advantage of her daughter ever again because of this condition."

Yamaguchi knew exactly what Zara was getting at as she simply had to recall the events in question. "I know.... I have her memories... I know exactly whereof you speak." Torilla smiled.

"Good... Then you can tell Olmos you want to take care of her daughter now," Zara pressed gently. "Maybe she'd be less pissed when something happens to Nalla, if you were the one that took point now."

Torilla slowly smiled as she slowly blinked. "Alright.... but I doubt it'll change anything between you two." she explained as one of the cats hopped up onto the bed, before Silversides pushed between the two women, before she curled up between them. "Meow."

Torilla raised an eyebrow. "Kitty... must you?"

"She loves you," Zara winked to her friend.

Torilla smiled as she gently ran her fingers through the cat's fur. "She knows I will look after her and her children." she explained as she gently scratched under the cat's chin.

"I'll pass helicopter mom to you then, in the future... She may even trust your judgement better than mine," Zara added in retrospect.